The Evil One....

I have been battling the Evil One , he is the bastard of the bunch . He is the one that yells at me , always telling me that I am not worth anything . Makes me question eveything about my self and my very existence . Am I good enough , am I not good enough , why does she like me , why does she stay with me , who am I realy . I know that I have many talents , but why does the bastard always tell me that no matter what I do it is not good enough . I get all twisted and my mind run off to the darkside of reality and into the outer realm of an alter universe and I lose grip of the reality that we live in . I start to belive the voices and it turns my world in to a total hell in my head . I am always asking myself what I have done wrong when I have done nothing at all . I start to belive that I am in trouble for any and everything I do around the house . Like I have to tiptoe around to keep everyone else happy and I feel like my insides are all twisted up and my opinions dont count . Like my wants and needs no matter how small they are or seam to be just dont matter . The Evil one tells me that no matter how good I have it he is here to get in my head and destroy my thoughts and send me down the bad and ugly path that does nothing but cause me my own misery . I fall in to a hole and hit the floor , and then fall though another till I cant get any deeper and then fall again . It puts everyone around me in to a terible tailspin , and for what ? Because the Evil bastard whats me to be misirable and everyone around me to be misirable too . I am going to stop here , I am not sure about any of this or anything at this point so I will go and come back another day.
P.A.